I struggle over what to say here.
I just lost my job and I'm trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my life, career wise and otherwise.
If I made enough money from CD sales I could just be a stay at home mom and maybe focus a little bit more on music as well, but I don't see that happening. My voice is peculiar.. my guitar skills are mediocre, at best. And my songs are too consistently sad for the radio. This leaves me saying "Hmmmm.."
Still.. I like to share my songs and my writing. I write songs and poetry all the time, constantly. I have pretty bad insomnia, so I find myself writing into the early hours of the morning sometimes and i wonder what to do with it all. Most of it, quite honestly, is too dark for sharing.
I feel the world deeply. Sometimes it feels like it's too dark for me to exist here, but then I look at my daughter and I know that I must, for she did not ask to be here, and I will not leave her alone. My parents never left me alone. I love them for that, and for ten thousand other things.
If you want to buy my CD's, I'll sign them for you and I'll make a wish for your happiness. I wouldn't even ask if I didn't really need the money right now. Honestly, I do need the money.
However, If you're broke like me and just want to listen for free, then I hope you enjoy them and I hope you can relate. Music SHOULD be free. My songs will always be free for the taking. You only have to pay if you want to.
All I really want from anyone is a little bit of relating. Otherwise this world is very hard to swallow.
Wishing you well,
Serena